really

Really, I didn't want to type this post..
but really, I can feel that pain again when bathing..

when I got up today morning and phoned a girl in the society to remind her sth about the ocamp materials...she just began to swear and swear to me claiming that I made a sms with mistake the night b4.. and she continued to say it's my fault.. but wt's the truth? it is that she read the sms wrongly and the sms does not have any mistakes..

but I just calm myself make her talk to herself...
but u know, I seldom hate ppl, but I really hate the ppl who scold me without a reason or with a wrong reason, I still remember how I scolded, fought back to someone and broke the guitar, the computer....everything I saw two years ago, just becoz that he scolded at me wrongly.

I didn't show the anger for almost 2 years already
and I didn't hit a girl for 19 years, becoz I don't consider it as a man when he hit a woman meaningly.....

later in the day, someone saved a video clip of us demonstrating cheers (that I took yeaterday) at youtube account but didn't publish it. but the girl again, kept scolding at me so so so loudly... it is not me who save the clip in you tube, even if so, no one published it.... she just thought that it was me who saved it in youtube, and I published it out...

I really can't keep listening to someone's shouting again and again, so I just call the guy to remove the clip from the account, and tried to explain to her how youtube works, but she just wouldn't listen.

it's not yet finished.... some hours later, she bit me right on my arm so hardly for revenge that I felt some inner muscle being torn off, and I think something did happen to the muscle there ... did I mention that some days ago she also gave me a hard kick right on my old unrecoverable would on my leg? now I can feel that pain on leg even when I rest on the bed!! not to mention the pain when I walk on stairs.

to any girls, I can just take their attacks easy b'coz I know they just don't mean to hurt, and usually they just can't hurt me... but this girl..really means to hurt, hurt as badly as possible....

for a very short moment today, I really want to give her a heavy punch... just like what I do when men provoke me

hope I can still control my anger...

hope no one will ever try to ignite the anger within me one again

really.. never met a girl like this.. 欣, Christie, c@, Marcel... none of them will provoke me so badly in this way... the worst case is just c@' s punch.. but she would never try to provoke me

don't piss me off!!!!